Bad Day!

Today was probably the worst day that I've had yet! I woke up at like 2 and I went straight to a meeting and then straight from the meeting to a memorial service at my church. At the meeting they had trays and trays FULL of cakes and cookies... it was only a matter of time before I lost it and had like FIVE of them. Then I had another on my way home :'(

On top of that I didn't get a chance to work out and I only ate a salad and two hard boiled eggs ;_;
We ran out of fruit so I didn't consume any fruit or any grains today. I had a slice of turkey in salad so I had a little protein.


I keep getting these thoughts that I should just quit and that I'm always going to be fat and when school starts I'm not going to be able to control myself. I keep lookinf for excuses like on New Years I was like 'Come on! It's NEW YEARS. No one would blame me if I just skipped today." And today at the memorial I was like 'It's a friggin memorial. I think I should be fine."

I just really don't want to give up this time. I want THIS to be the time where I actually was fully committed and it changed my life. And I could lose 100 pounds and I would get cast in to play and I could meet a boy and I could feel fit.

My mom thinks that the only way that I'm gonna lose weight is on the Atkins. So let me ask you guys: have you reaped benefits from exercising often and having a balanced diet? And not some special diet...